superfluosity

i don't want to be all whiny, but, really, that's what i wanted to start
blogging for... basically, i see my blog as a place to whine without
interruption and without concern for who might read it and get their
feelings hurt. i don't want to be concerned about their feelings before
my feelings. this is my "i need to hash out how *i* feel" place.

so anyway, life can be very annoying.

i'm supposed to be studying, but instead i am doing a pile of work that
other people did previously, but screwed up. these are the people who
are "helping" me so i will be able to take some time to study. part of
that scheme was for me to be off every friday for the next month or so,
but yesterday i worked about 2 hours at home, drove 40 minutes to work,
then worked 5 hours at the office, then brought a big pile of work home
to hack away at over the weekend, which of course i am also supposed to
be using to study.

i don't want this freaking test to become the bane of my existence. i
don't want my job to be the bane of my existence either. actually, lots
of things are competing very strongly to be the bane of my existence. i
wonder, can a person have multiple banes of existence?

i think i can, and i think i am closing in on perfecting the technique.